I’ve talked before about how I create worlds around boys I have crushes on. My novel is based around a ship I like a lot, not necessarily a specific one but one that pops up a lot in fiction.
In my most recent world, my Mary Sue is a drug addict. Well, not exactly. But enough that I can call her one. It’s not something I planned when I first brainstormed the character, but when I realized that she was, I kind of sat back like, “That makes so much sense.” An addict.
I’m not addicted to specific substances, but I am addicted to a certain kind of lifestyle. One where I surround myself with people who make me feel certain things whether they know it or not. I’ve been kind of restless and dissatisfied recently, and after hanging out with a certain glorious one today, I realized why. And it makes me homesick for the person I can’t have, but at the same time, I’m so glad that I’ve made other friends who understand me.